I had a request for an update...so here it is....sorry its not going to be a happy one
ya no how I said things are going great....i take it all back
my life has taken a turn for the worst
my grandfather who was doing so well passed away about 2 weeks ago...it was a complete shock he was doing so well he just couldnt hold on anymore...he was ready to be with my grandmother...
my cell phone got stole bout a week or so ago...whoever stole it rang up over $100 in ringtones...so i have no numbers yet...if u read this send me ur number so i can build on my collection again....i had well over 100 numbers and now i have like 10 im not to happy with that.
ya no that "great" job i have a dave and busters....well all it does is pisses me off...i still make pretty damn good money but sometimes its not worth the stress....i clocked out last sunday with 66 hours....that is insain!...i worked 4 doubles 3 of which were back to back...and im sick of dealing with all the bullshit drama its like highschool all over again..."hey did u hear that shes sleeping with him and him and then he is sleeping with this other chick" you can't have a secret there...not to mention one person in particular is who is ripping my heart out and stepping on it right in front of me...o then there are all the bitchy people that come in I NEED I WANT CAN I HAVE!!! NOW NOW NOW! people can be so rude then tip u like shit HELLO THIS IS WHAT I DO FOR A LIVING I HAVE TO PAY BILLS JUST LIKE U DO ASSHOLE! but hey ur gunna get that were ever u go. if it wasnt for the money i would have left already.
i love how i can never be number one in anyone's life. im just a toy and when they are done with it they toss it aside...why do guys think they can do that? i thought he was different but guess what....hes just like the rest of them...hes exactly the person he said he wasnt...hes not worth my tears but i cant help it sometimes...the only problem i can see is our age differance...7 years which i no sounds like a lot but hes acts like its more like 7 in the opposite direction. why is he doing this to me? i mean he himself has told everyone how i treat him better then any other girl and hes always telling me how perfect i am...well what all of a sudden changed? i no...i can sum it up in one word NICC
nicc (yes he spells it that way) is the biggest asshole i have EVER met and probably had something to do with all this...last night he proceeded to call me fat over and over...ya no ive been dealing with that my whole life...and it never bothered me but he really got to me...not to mention the guy who is supposed to care about me was laughing in the background (this was over the phone)
why is it that when i think things have changed im ALWAYS wrong...i may have been happy before but it didnt last long trust me...if sara is happy it only means her life is going to suck in a week and when things go wrong for me things go WRONG!
im so stressed out i can hardly stand it....i think im losing hair over it lol there is so much more that i could talk about but i figure that thats enough bitching for one day
sorry guys thanx for listening tho
katie since ur the only one that reads this im sorry especially to u cuz i updated for u lol didnt mean to be a downer i just have a lot of shit on my mind
I LOVE U ALL ANYWAYS!
-Sara
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